Really, I'm having complete uninspired writer's block right now. I guess I could tell you out there what terrible eye sight I have. I'm not sure what the ratio is (i.e. 20/20 or 15/20) but it's pretty bad. I mean, just to read what I'm typing here, situated about 1 or 2 feet from the screen, i have to squint my eyes, which actually doesn't do anything. Sure, it helps a little bit, but i can't read the words very clearly. I can't even begin to comprehend how I would survive without my contacts, or glasses, but i hate those. Even my contacts don't help a whole bunch. They just give my eyesight a boost big enough that I can read the board from the back of the classroom. Worse, my eyesight is slowly decreasing each and every year. I don't think you people with perfect vision will ever understand what it's like to feel blind, which i know I'm not. I just feel like i am. I should be grateful that i can see colors and shapes and peoples mouths moving and expressive hand gestures, but for now, i'm not. I'm a teenager, it comes with being in this weird rebellion stage of life. If i don't have what i want, I feel as if i'm being punished. I can't help it. Sorry for those of you that I'm offending, but i'm not going to lie.
Talking about lying, my friend, Allie, and I had an interesting conversation about how easy it is to lie today while waiting in the lunch line. We both discovered that we're both pretty bad at it, which is a good thing. Hallelujah! The only exception is that I am able to lie in "yes" or "no" questions. I mean, it's a fifty-fifty chance that i'm going to lie or tell the truth. It's not that hard. I'm sure most of you out there are a lot better at it than me. When i lie, i smile or end up laughing, because i feel like a complete idiot trying to lie to people. Oh, and eye contact isn't even impossible. That's why i only succeed when i'm sitting side by side with someone, and it takes too much effort to turn your head to stare at your friend. Plus, that can be awkward...staring at someone that close... unless, no. It's still awkward. I'm kind of glad I can't 100% lie. I mean, imagine what your life would be like if your closest friends lied to you. They wouldn't even be your close friends! So thank you, God, for giving us selfish humans guilty consciences. If you want to know, the last time i lied was two days ago. Guess what i lied about? I told the girl who sits next to me in Human Biology that i've eaten fugu before. If you don't know what fugu is, it's puffer-fish, served raw. Sadly, puffer-fish is poisonous, so the people who eat it are risking their lives each time they eat it. It's insane! Ha but if you think about it, each time you prepare fugu you would be pretty much be risking someone's life. Scary thought.
Um, yeah. Nothing else is popping up into my mind...so i'm going to stop. Have a wonderful day!
I Apologize In Advance
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Discouraged
Hey, guys...I'm not in a happy mood right now. In order to understand my pain you must realize something about me. I love music. I do. It's pretty much my entire life. I'm pretty sure i'd be living under a rock without it. Because of this passion for music I take voice lessons, which i love. The only problem is that my teacher makes me act as well as sing. In order to fully express yourself in your song you are sometimes required to act the part. That's just how it is, but honestly, if i'd wanted to act i would take drama, and there's a reason i don't do that. No matter how hard I try i can't seem to put myself out there. And now I've been told that something i love and something i hate must coexist completely discourages me! I don't know what I'm going to do. For like two seconds I considered quitting, but that just made my heart ache and my eyes burn, so that is completely out of the question.
I'm not sure how i'm going to sing if i have to act. It's not possible for me, it just isn't. It's not who i am (it may be someone i want to be, but i'm not going to be untrue to myself). Now, i realize that i'm being way too dramatic about this, but when it comes to me and music, there is no possible way to be melodramatic. I LOVE MUSIC! I love singing and listening to it. I love it when i become emotionally involved in what i'm listening to and the song is no longer just a song, but a story. I truly believe everything i've just said. What i don't believe is how acting and singing have anything to do with one another. Sure, they make a great combination when done right, I know plenty of musicals that have emotionally impacted me, but i will never be able to up myself to that level. My stupid anti-social personality keeps me from doing that. When i'm with a group of my friends, and they're acting crazy, I'm usually the only one not acting crazy. I laugh, sure, but i don't act. See where i'm getting at?
But whatever, I hope you've enjoyed my little spiel. I can't help but feel strongly about the point above. Secretly, I really really really really want to act while i sing, but i don't think i ever can. So for now, I won't. But anyway, that's all i can think to write right now. Thanks for listening. Hope i didn't annoy you.
I'm not sure how i'm going to sing if i have to act. It's not possible for me, it just isn't. It's not who i am (it may be someone i want to be, but i'm not going to be untrue to myself). Now, i realize that i'm being way too dramatic about this, but when it comes to me and music, there is no possible way to be melodramatic. I LOVE MUSIC! I love singing and listening to it. I love it when i become emotionally involved in what i'm listening to and the song is no longer just a song, but a story. I truly believe everything i've just said. What i don't believe is how acting and singing have anything to do with one another. Sure, they make a great combination when done right, I know plenty of musicals that have emotionally impacted me, but i will never be able to up myself to that level. My stupid anti-social personality keeps me from doing that. When i'm with a group of my friends, and they're acting crazy, I'm usually the only one not acting crazy. I laugh, sure, but i don't act. See where i'm getting at?
But whatever, I hope you've enjoyed my little spiel. I can't help but feel strongly about the point above. Secretly, I really really really really want to act while i sing, but i don't think i ever can. So for now, I won't. But anyway, that's all i can think to write right now. Thanks for listening. Hope i didn't annoy you.
Monday, February 21, 2011
After The Bachelor
So... I'm blogging. Fun concept to think about, i know. Seriously, most of the time when i log onto this website i absolutely have no idea what I'm going to be telling those few people who actually read what i put down. Which i guess is good, because then you can actually have a sense of what my personality is like. Truly, I don't think i act like the way i portray myself here, which is probably bad...or we can blame it on my antisocial-ness, which is what i usually do.
On a random side note, I found a new band to listen to. As referred to in my last post, I am obsessed with Phantom of the Opera. In turn, this means I listen to the soundtrack pretty much 24/7...when i'm doing homework, talking to friends, going out for a jog, etc etc etc... A few days ago i decided that i should probably find something new to listen to. I'm pretty sure my friends were sick of me belting out off-pitch versions of Music of the Night. At first, I thought i'd just listen to another band/group that was already in my iPod. After much frustration, and after moving back to Phantom again and again, I decided i had to find a brand new band that i'd never ever listened to before. Now, you must understand that this is a very risky business for me. I'm picky in almost every single area of my life, and music is no different. If i don't like the first song I hear by the group I just won't like the rest of their music. Sad, yes, but that's me.
One day, while sitting in the exact same spot i've been eating lunch with my friends during school for years, i pulled out my iPod, and thinking about the terrible predicament I was in, pretty much decided to screw music altogether. Get rid of it. See if I care that music wasn't a part of my life. Sigh. Whilst in this sad state of thought, Brock happened to be sitting down next to me, listening to his music on his iPod. I admit, I was slightly jealous that he actually had music he liked, and didn't have all these conflicting feeling about it. That, my dear friends, is probably the saddest thing ever. But moving on, I suddenly had the thought that whatever he was listening to might actually be good, so i asked him what he was listening to.
It turned out to be Who I Am Hates Who I've Been by Relient K. Before that moment, I've heard about Relient K, but had never had the urge to actually listen to their music. It actually took me two whole days of my sad I-Give-Up-On-Music before i actually decided to investigate. Let me tell you, I am absolutely in love with Relient K now. They're awesome, and i'm amazed I've never heard any of their songs before. Actually, into further investigation, I found i have one song by them on my iPod, but it's the 12 Days of Christmas, so i guess that explains everything. Ha well, now i have a new band that i love, my life is now filled with music, and I've never been happier. Actually, yes i have been happier, but honestly, i don't know any of you out there good enough to let you into my mind. Not even my best friends know how i feel. I suppose my Heavenly Father is the only one who truly knows how i feel...but that's what he's for :)
So, yeah....my blog posting is done. Glad you actually read this far. Have a great day, night, evening, afternoon, whatever. See ya.
On a random side note, I found a new band to listen to. As referred to in my last post, I am obsessed with Phantom of the Opera. In turn, this means I listen to the soundtrack pretty much 24/7...when i'm doing homework, talking to friends, going out for a jog, etc etc etc... A few days ago i decided that i should probably find something new to listen to. I'm pretty sure my friends were sick of me belting out off-pitch versions of Music of the Night. At first, I thought i'd just listen to another band/group that was already in my iPod. After much frustration, and after moving back to Phantom again and again, I decided i had to find a brand new band that i'd never ever listened to before. Now, you must understand that this is a very risky business for me. I'm picky in almost every single area of my life, and music is no different. If i don't like the first song I hear by the group I just won't like the rest of their music. Sad, yes, but that's me.
One day, while sitting in the exact same spot i've been eating lunch with my friends during school for years, i pulled out my iPod, and thinking about the terrible predicament I was in, pretty much decided to screw music altogether. Get rid of it. See if I care that music wasn't a part of my life. Sigh. Whilst in this sad state of thought, Brock happened to be sitting down next to me, listening to his music on his iPod. I admit, I was slightly jealous that he actually had music he liked, and didn't have all these conflicting feeling about it. That, my dear friends, is probably the saddest thing ever. But moving on, I suddenly had the thought that whatever he was listening to might actually be good, so i asked him what he was listening to.
It turned out to be Who I Am Hates Who I've Been by Relient K. Before that moment, I've heard about Relient K, but had never had the urge to actually listen to their music. It actually took me two whole days of my sad I-Give-Up-On-Music before i actually decided to investigate. Let me tell you, I am absolutely in love with Relient K now. They're awesome, and i'm amazed I've never heard any of their songs before. Actually, into further investigation, I found i have one song by them on my iPod, but it's the 12 Days of Christmas, so i guess that explains everything. Ha well, now i have a new band that i love, my life is now filled with music, and I've never been happier. Actually, yes i have been happier, but honestly, i don't know any of you out there good enough to let you into my mind. Not even my best friends know how i feel. I suppose my Heavenly Father is the only one who truly knows how i feel...but that's what he's for :)
So, yeah....my blog posting is done. Glad you actually read this far. Have a great day, night, evening, afternoon, whatever. See ya.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Obsession
Have you ever had those crazy obsessions where you can't seem to ever get rid of them? If you haven't, you obviously won't understand what I am going through. Currently, I can't seem to stop thinking about Phantom of the Opera. I mean, it's got music, opera-like dancing, and gorgeous men. I am, of course, talking about the movie by Andrew Lloyd Webber. A couple weeks ago my school actually put on the play Phantom of the Opera, and it was AMAZING. I've never seen anything like it before.
When the movie originally came out in 2004, my little teenage self loved it. I couldn't get enough of it. Over the years, my obsession died down, and yet, because of my school it has come back. To tell you the truth, i don't mind one bit. Who couldn't like it? If you haven't seen it, I suggest that you do because it will forever change your mind about haunting love stories. (On a side note, Gerard Butler plays the Phantom, so that just makes the movie 10X greater).
Ha I know its been about a month or so since I've last posted something on here. If you're wondering why I've decided to start attempting to write again, it's because a very dear friend of mine asked me for the url of my blog. Until then, I'd completely forgot about it. Ever since that day, I can't seem to stop myself from thinking of witty little things to put out here for the world to see. Seriously, when i was walking down the hallway of my high school yesterday I saw this little doodle of a Viking on one of the spirit posters hanging in on the wall and thought, "oh! cute! I wanna tell someone about that." Instead of having the impression to tell my friends, I actually thought of my blog. Way to go dear friend, you've got me obsessed with my blog now.
Actually, blog writing isn't so bad....kind of fun. In a way.
Question for anyone out there who reads my posts. Have you ever written a note to someone? Not a letter. No. Those are completely different. I'm talking about sitting in school and pulling out some paper and a pen to write a little happy thought for a friend of yours who is only a few classrooms down from you. If you haven't, it's a great way to show your appreciation, as well as get some thoughts down if you are anti-social like me, and want your friends to know you actually do have a personality. Haha so far i've written 2 notes to Natalie (who wrote me back! love ya!), 1 to Allison, 1 to Brock, and another to Heather. It's quite fun...and I'm completely random in my notes. I'm pretty sure they have no order of construction whatsoever. But my friends seemed to enjoy them, so i guess something went right there :)
Okay, so...i'm honestly running out-wait! i remember something else i want to say. About a week ago, a great friend of mine introduced me to a book called Modest Proposal. Let me tell you, best book ever! It's so cute and makes you smile. It's sequel, Hometown Girl, is even better. It's my favorite actually so far...I'm still waiting for the next books to come out. I suspect there will be 5 books total. One for each girl: Lauryn, Jocelyn, Emma, Chloe, Andrea...I believe that's all of them. Ha well, they're just good. They're kind of chick-flicky, but that's okay. Some people love books like that.
Okay, now i'm really done. Thanks for reading.
When the movie originally came out in 2004, my little teenage self loved it. I couldn't get enough of it. Over the years, my obsession died down, and yet, because of my school it has come back. To tell you the truth, i don't mind one bit. Who couldn't like it? If you haven't seen it, I suggest that you do because it will forever change your mind about haunting love stories. (On a side note, Gerard Butler plays the Phantom, so that just makes the movie 10X greater).
Ha I know its been about a month or so since I've last posted something on here. If you're wondering why I've decided to start attempting to write again, it's because a very dear friend of mine asked me for the url of my blog. Until then, I'd completely forgot about it. Ever since that day, I can't seem to stop myself from thinking of witty little things to put out here for the world to see. Seriously, when i was walking down the hallway of my high school yesterday I saw this little doodle of a Viking on one of the spirit posters hanging in on the wall and thought, "oh! cute! I wanna tell someone about that." Instead of having the impression to tell my friends, I actually thought of my blog. Way to go dear friend, you've got me obsessed with my blog now.
Actually, blog writing isn't so bad....kind of fun. In a way.
Question for anyone out there who reads my posts. Have you ever written a note to someone? Not a letter. No. Those are completely different. I'm talking about sitting in school and pulling out some paper and a pen to write a little happy thought for a friend of yours who is only a few classrooms down from you. If you haven't, it's a great way to show your appreciation, as well as get some thoughts down if you are anti-social like me, and want your friends to know you actually do have a personality. Haha so far i've written 2 notes to Natalie (who wrote me back! love ya!), 1 to Allison, 1 to Brock, and another to Heather. It's quite fun...and I'm completely random in my notes. I'm pretty sure they have no order of construction whatsoever. But my friends seemed to enjoy them, so i guess something went right there :)
Okay, so...i'm honestly running out-wait! i remember something else i want to say. About a week ago, a great friend of mine introduced me to a book called Modest Proposal. Let me tell you, best book ever! It's so cute and makes you smile. It's sequel, Hometown Girl, is even better. It's my favorite actually so far...I'm still waiting for the next books to come out. I suspect there will be 5 books total. One for each girl: Lauryn, Jocelyn, Emma, Chloe, Andrea...I believe that's all of them. Ha well, they're just good. They're kind of chick-flicky, but that's okay. Some people love books like that.
Okay, now i'm really done. Thanks for reading.
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